Another Weekend…

Weekends in general scare me. They go too fast, I don’t get everything done and I usually spend too much money. They scare me even more now since I can’t just get up and go. I can assure you that even though the gas station might have a cup of grapes sitting there, it isn’t necessarily the safest to eat.

I didn’t cheat this weekend. I had no desire. I had a processed induced meal in the middle of the week and it made me so sick. I imagine that will continue to happen and I will continue to have a processed meal here and there. Anyway, by the time the weekend came, my stomach was not quite ready for anything that wasn’t raw.

I got a text from my partner that our friend’s son was going in for emergency brain surgery. I was at the grocery store, so I reached out to our friend, got the details and we went and stayed with her. I was hungry. I had been so busy running errands and cleaning that I didn’t eat much in general. I have to remember that eating raw (without meat) doesn’t sustain my hunger as long as processed foods, but in general my energy is more stable. Processed foods will keep me full all day, but I will crash…

So, as we are getting ready to leave, I am in the kitchen cutting up fresh veggies, spooning out some organic ranch, getting some yummy sunbutter prepared and cutting us some apples. I had myself a little spread since I didn’t know how long we were going to be at the hospital.

I think people think I am crazy. As my partner and I were walking into work this morning she tells me that I need to get rid of my purse. She laughs and tells me I have too many things to carry. Let’s see, I had my jacket and scarf on my arm (not idea why I wasn’t wearing it), my laptop backpack on my back, my purse and my giant Trader Joe’s bag with all of my daily food intake. It’s true! I look silly, but I look at it as some form of weight lifting and I am getting some muscle definition since I do it 5 days a week! Since I have issues with my right chest/shoulder/arm…I usually carry everything with my left arm so I am going to have one of those giant arms with the other arm being skinny. haha

Update on my health:

I believe that eating raw is helping me with my overall health. My weight is going down which is good. I am not trying to lose weight, but it is just happening since I am eating what the beautiful earth actually intended us to eat. My energy levels are much better and I am finding that I do not crash in the middle of the day, at night or in the morning for that matter. Even if I only get 3 hours of sleep, I find that I can wake up a lot easier in the morning and I start moving faster than normal. That is a bonus since I am and ENTJ and us intuitive types are usually always late for everything.

As far as my pain levels, I think I want to start a pain journal to see how my pain levels are fluctuating. This past weekend we had a lot of cold weather and rain. That knocked me out Friday and made me have higher pain levels throughout the weekend. Weather is always going to impact me because it flare up my lymph nodes, but I feel that this time around it wasn’t as bad as it has in the past. Still bad…but a lesser bad perhaps. The pain in my chest around my collarbone and into my shoulder has been pretty much the deminse of my “pain free” days. It has to be connected to my Chiari somehow and I really need to get into my neurosurgeon and talk to him. Since the MRI on my chest and shoulder came out normal with the exception of the mass, I can only conclude that it is related to my Chiari and neck since they are all connected. Either way, the healthier you are in general, the better off you are if you do have Chiari. Any pressure from being overweight, etc. just isn’t a good thing. Plus, a lot of the foods that eat on the Paleo diet are high in anti-imflammatory so that helps with the lymph nodes.

 

 

Advertisements

Apple Heaven

Last night I got hungry and decided it was time for a light snack. It had been a while since I had dinner and to be honest, I didn’t eat a lot earlier so my stomach was yelling at me for some substance.

I wanted something light and I REALLY didn’t want to cook anything since I had already made my “Last Leg Vegetable Soup”. I decided to cut up an apple and I drizzled it with some raw honey and then spread some Sunbutter on top. It was so yummy and it really hit the spot. The mixture of salty and sweet was a perfect combination and the protein from the Sunbutter was great for keeping me satisfied into the early morning. I was so delighted with my snack that I opted to bring it in to work so I could taste it again!

I’m excited to try my “Last Leg Vegetable Soup” for lunch or even for a snack. It is funny because you make things, but since you are eating so healthy, anything can end up being a snack. You truly are eating more than ever! There are no more 3x a day meals as you are consistently providing your body with the appropriate nutrients throughout the day. I have noticed that my body is telling me what it needs. I now know if I need protein or sugar or vitamins from veggies. I feel different and my brain just knows what I need to eat. I guess that is what happens when you get all of that junk out from your system.

Anyway, I have to admit that I took the plunge and actually weighed myself yesterday. I promised that I wouldn’t weigh myself, but after reading some blogs, I thought it would be a good idea. I now have a baseline so I can measure if I do begin to lose weight too fast. I have read in some other blogs that people who do the Paleo diet lose a lot of weight really fast which I do not think is healthy. I would be happy with 1-2 pounds a week, but I would also be happy with nothing, provided that I feel better about myself from the inside out. This is definitely not about weight loss, but it comes with the territory when you begin to eat raw. So, we’ll see. I don’t have a goal of how I want to look. Of course, I can say that I would be happy at a120 pounds, but now that I am 30, I am not sure that is realistic. I don’t have the same body I did in high school so I am happy with just being healthy.

I think it is important that we as humans stop putting such a huge focus on a number or a size when it comes to the way we look. I wish we could just look at ourselves and say, “wow, I look good today” or even “I like my curves today”. I know that society plays a huge role in the way we think we are supposed to look, but we ourselves need to also take personal responsibility. There is no reason why we can’t throw away society and find inner happiness and contentment.

I’m a hypocrite and I will admit that. I want that perfect body and everything society says I should be. But why? I can preach all day about finding inner happiness because I know it is the right thing to do, but at the end of the day, I am no different from anyone else. Part of my journey in this lifestyle change is to find that inner happiness. To be happy with a few curves and be okay with not being perfect. I encourage all of you to work on this journey with me and with yourselves as we change from the inside out.